The End

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Abruptly. No, it was not.

Emotional. Not as I had imagined.

Tears. There were none.

Dreamlike. What we had, or could have had.



Emptiness.



Disappointment. Without a doubt.

Goodbyes. There were none.

Love. Buried so deep that it struggles to find a way out.

Regrets. Only one.

Possibilities. Now I see them.

Freedom. Finally.

The End

Carolina Moon

Only a sliver of a moon
dimly lit at twilight

Mirroring my mood of fading blue
wanton to take flight

Up into the rolling dark clouds
to stay for the night

Floating high like a lost firefly
glowing with the moonlight

Looking down from the Carolina sky
with the coastline in sight

I see everything clearly illuminated
in the quiet of tonight

turn the tide

He came in quite unexpectedly
Slowly opening the door of desire
Finding my well-closeted passion
Entangled in life’s barbed wire.

He gently coaxed out forgotten cravings
Setting my jailed heart afloat
Out onto an ocean of big love with
Sensual breezes powering my lifeboat.

He released the abandoned sensations
Of my passion once denied.
Now forever in his tender care
Drifting along together on a euphoric tide.

Some day

   

Inside THE Dark

I have heard from others
That they are drawn to THE light
I prefer to keep a safe distance
Remaining ever curious
Along the fringes of THE bright.

There are things in THE shadows
That intrigue me the most
Slower, quieter, harder
Stiller, deeper, sweeter
Things that do not boast.

I have heard from others
That they are scared of THE dark.
I want to wear it too often
Knowing full well
The silkiness of THE dark.

[ photo credit: Photo was found here. ]

dazed

[ photo credit: Photo was found here. ]

when it happens
you're never ready
IT jumps out of nowhere
FAST, twisted and steady

you are dazed
confusion continues
IT remains unfazed

you hold on with blind faith
there IS a reason and IT will work out
trusting that karma will rightly prevail
but deep inside your heart, you have doubt

you are dazed
uncertainty swells
IT remains crazed

all at once, IT becomes surreal
dreamlike time, not enough tears to cry
now only the TRUTH can fetch the breeze
for your injured wings to again fly high

you are dazed
there IS hope
YOU are amazed

bubblegum days

Take me back

to my bubblegum days

Let me play in the yard again
where I smacked and twirled

Let me pretend again
that I'm Queen of the world

Take me back
to those bubblegum days

[ photo credit: Photo was found here. ]

waiting

I feel my heart racing
As he comes through the door.
The sight of his tousled hair
Makes me want him even more.

There are not enough kisses
In the world, or inside of me
To express the love I feel
Whenever I see my sweet baby.

Oh god, I love to tease him
And certainly, he likes it too.
He stares with delight as I undress
Always entertained with what I do.

Slowly, surely the clothes come off
One. Two. Three. Four.
And the show goes on, until
Each piece is on the floor.

Standing naked before him
He sees beyond my skin
Wanting to touch and pleasure
But all he can do is grin.

Nearly lost in adoring moments
Till we reach out and roam.
Everything is right again
Now that my baby is home.

Home. Home. Home.
Finally my baby is home.

[ photo credit: Trevor Watson ]
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on the horizon

Seems I'll never learn to recognize
The tempest out on the horizon
Never thinking for a moment of
the storm's impact -- unpredictable and sudden.

Time after Time
I'll head for the storm

Each time the thunder crashes
and my soul jumps with penance.
Each time the lightening scares me
with sudden flashes of passionate brilliance.

Time after Time
I'll head for the storm

Each time it gets so alarmingly dark
Just like falling in a deep, deep hole.
Each time is a refreshing reminder
As the rain pours on me to console.

Time after Time
I'll head for the storm

Each time is different
with lessons that entwine.
Each time is the same
Putting my all on the line.

Time after Time
I'll head for the storm

[ photo credit: moodaholic ]

why ask why?

Why did you say you loved me
when you knew you loved her more?
Why did we make sweet passionate love?
Is that all you needed me for?

Why do I listen to those melancholy songs
when all they do is remind me of our story?
It hurts more than I imagined
What can ever set my heart free?

You are my sweetest downfall
Why am I still under your spell?
There's nothing more in this world
for me but a living, loveless hell.

Why did we come together
when it was never meant to last?
Why did you swear we would be one someday?
Will I ever forget the pain of our past?

Why am I still missing you after all these years?
It is the curse that follows me throughout all my days.
I long to be in your arms once again
despite it all, I will love you, forever and always.

[ photo credit: Photo was found here ]

you in my bed

As I awoke slowly this morning
Next to me appeared an inviting silhouette
I reached out to smell, to embrace this vision
Needing to unite as a spooning duet.

Now my lucid dreaming takes me back
To when I was wearing that green sundress.
Warm and relaxed, enjoying time suspended
Going to astral places I don't want to suppress.

Dreams of you
You in my bed.

Enjoying the sensations welling up inside
Yearning for your touch, your lips, your sweat
Pulling you in for a soul-weaving kiss
Can it be that we have never even met?

I have not allowed myself to feel this way
Too afraid that it will be - oh so good - like heroin
So good that I would never ever want to stop
But in this surreal place, I have nowhere to run.

Dreams of you
You in my bed.

Caressing - squeezing - holding on tight
But the only one under the bed cover
Is one big fluffy feathery pillow
Masquerading happily as my lover.

You in my head
You in my bed.

I Yi Yi

I paint.
See?

I write.
Read?

I sing.
Hear?

I cook.
Taste?

I teach.
Learn?

I give.
Receive?

I desire.
Feel?

I undress.
Watch?

I need.
Complete?

I'm lost.
Find.


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I'm just an avatar

I'm just an avatar
Or could I be a Hollywood star?
You wouldn't know if I had a handicap
Maybe I'm just a booby trap.

I'm just an avatar
Possibly I play the steel guitar
Perhaps I am a classic nutcase
Or someone with a pretty face.

I'm just an avatar
Might I be a technology czar?
You may ponder if I'm smart
Or wonder if I'm merely a tart?

I'm just an avatar
Maybe I even drive a squad car
But what you'll discover in my smile
You'll swear I came from an emerald isle.

I'm just an avatar
Stuck here in this online pickle jar
I could be a spell-casting witch
I might be a self-righteous bitch.

It's not hard to be an Original
When you're bored like Jonathan Livingston Seagull
But I beg of you - don't be smitten
By the words I've written.

I'm just an avatar
It's conceivable that I'm really bizarre
Just remember that on the Internet
No one knows if you're blonde or brunette

I can be your cyberspace hottie
But never forget that I am Somebody
I can BE what you want me to BE
As long as we both agree

That I'm just an avatar
That you've admire from afar
I'm a little of this and a little of that
Stop by anytime for a friendly online chat

because I'm just an avatar.

I Need My Sugar

My Sugar is what I want when I wake up
That's when everything is a sleepy blur
You can add lots of cream into my cup
But I'm nothing without My Sugar.

My Sugar is so welcomed and so sweet
My body craves that satisfying taste
And it needs to feel the heat
Of the flavors mulled to be embraced.

Sugar in the morning
It's a simple love story
Between me and my craving
For My Sweet Sugar in all it's glory.

My Sugar
Makes me want more
My Sugar
Makes me want to soar

Oh yes!
Sugary goodness!

Can't sleep

Is it right for excitement to coexist with worry?

It's difficult to lay down. The thoughts keep me buoyant.

lay down... close my eyes... let sleep come... tomorrow IS another day.

To be
cliche. ;-)

lonely sad

the wonder of it

How is it that people come into your life?
Perhaps the same way that people leave your life.

Unexpectedly.

But I believe the universe gives us what we need. Yesterday I read through Dave's poems. His words pushed up words in me. Hard words in a good way. And so began the churn of words in me... once thought long lost.

Up came a poem from me. ;-)

Back Behind the Avatar
That is a smile and those are my eyes
They're both filled with caution with my hi's
Odd only begins to describe the sensation and
The awkwardness of beginning conversation.
I can't bare to fall and there's no way I can tell it all
Because that would unveil the real ME
And that's one reason to be
Back
Behind the Avatar.
We share a laugh and a compliment and
Smile at each other's posts full of sentiment.
The messaging goes to and fro and
We Wonder
Is this? Could this? Don't go there.
It spoils the fun and mystique to be
Back
Behind the Avatar.
Now I stumble on an avatar that catches my eye
and the words I read there almost makes me cry.
Some One who seems delightful and insightful.
Some One that is a treat and not a trick and
He seems to know what makes me tick.
How could he know what dreams I have
Back
Behind the Avatar.
Underneath the trappings of a sexy miss
he sees the me that dreams of a Lifetime Kiss
Here at this place from my keyboard and remote
I come upon Some One Special that makes me float
high and happy and allows me to be sappy
dare I let him
Way Back
Behind the Avatar

this day

This is the day that I started writing it again. I totally blame my new friend, Dave, for kicking my creative ass into a flurry of - thinking, shaping, typing - a panic of words.

And so begins the beginning...